OUTCAST

Thought I’d focus on books, a solid plan,
I love studying, romanticize the grind,
A’s on my papers, a nerd’s peace of mind.

I thought I’d do well, that’s what I planned,
Decided to focus, take my stand,
I chose to study hard, not make friends at first,
But now I’m cramming last minute, feeling cursed.
I value my grades, they’re my personal aim,
But today I feel lost in a friendship’s game.

Woke up today, it's like I’m on my own,
In a crowded room, yet I’m feeling all alone.
Professors speak in riddles I can’t decode,
In this endless maze, I’ve lost my way on this road.

In a room full of laughter, I stood alone,
An echo of silence, a heart of stone.
Faces brightened with joy and cheer,
Yet I lingered distant, my soul unclear.

I see them talking, laughing, and I’m just a ghost,
Trying to join in, but I’m a shadow at most.
Their world seems so alive, while I’m stuck outside,
Their shared stories, a melody I don’t know the song.

Decisions I’ve made felt so wrong.
Tried to make a friend, but I’ve built my own wall,
In this silent corner, I’ve watched it all fall.
Their stories and laughter, like whispers in the night,
I’m stuck on the sidelines, out of their light
In the world I built alone, I’m an outcast, out of their sight.

Walking home alone, with shadows at my side,
Friends holding hands, with love they can’t hide.
I see them laughing, see them hold tight,
In this endless struggle, I’ve lost my light.
Tears in my eyes as I turn to the sky,
Wondering why I’m so alone as time drifts by.

I try to reach out, but it feels so wrong,
Like I’m intruding on a conversation I don’t belong,
If they want to talk, they shall come to me,
Instead, I’m left with my thoughts, yearning to be free.

In the crowd but apart,
Every moment of connection, slips right through my hands.
Longing for a friend,
Someone to share moments with, a heart
I thought I’d find a friend in this college scene,
But now I see it’s not as it seemed,
Staring at the ceiling, thinking of what’s next,
Feeling so lonely, with no friend to connect.
I thought I’d find a bond, a connection so true,
But all I’ve found is solitude, feeling blue.

In the tale of my life, there’s a chapter still bright,
I’ll carve out my space, in the quiet of night.
So I’ll follow the whispers that guide through the night,
Hoping for a friend to make everything right.
To laugh and talk with, to share the highs and lows,
A friend to understand me, someone who knows.
It’s about finding someone who’ll be there every night.
It’s like a movie scene, but I’m not in the cast.