Backtrack

I don’t know why I am looking back

Am I regretting things that I lack?

Am I slipping off the track?

Flashes of failure attack

Doubts keep piling, heavy and black

Heartbeat echoes as calculators clack

Each mistake lands a brutal whack

Pressure builds with each book on the rack

Sitting in a dark room, pitch black

Tryna speak as my voice cracks

I carry the weight in a heavy backpack

There’s still a code I can’t hack

So I trust the rhythm of my own knack

I take a measured pause, a mental snack

Sane and satisfied, I finally hit the sack

Cause I know I can never afford to slack

Pretty Life

In a park,

Suffering writer’s block,

Like I lost my key to the lock.

I sit under a tree,

Hoping to turn my pain into poetry.

Trying to find my melody,

Yearning to be free,

Wishing to flee,

Watching children play with glee.

I think of times when I was three,

Grew into a girl with a degree,

Can't believe how life could be,

So pretty,

Love surrounding me,

Like waves embracing the sea.

Who Did You love ?

I spoke in stars, drew stories in the air

Dreamt in color, danced without a care

You watched like I was something soft and rare

Like a daydream you were scared to tear

Ran barefoot, never shrunk from the rain

Danced through the world with a ribbon untied,

Laughed like the wind—careless, wide-eyed.

Didn’t care if the world watched—I burned too bright

Used to wear my hair down, chase the wind at dawn

Ran through golden streets like I belonged to the sun

Wore my sneakers, ran through life, never had to run

You looked at me like I was stardust in motion

Now I’m just a passing thought, a faded emotion

Who did you love—me or the way I used to be?

Did you fall for the fire or just the way it shined on me?

Or was it just the way I shined

That kept you hypnotized?

Now I just daydream and fantasize

My hair falls in ribbons, combed into place,

I walk with purpose, but slower in pace.

Now I tie my hair back, walk like I’ve got plans

Now I walk in straight lines, move with intent,

But you don’t stare like you did back then

So tell me, tell me, who did you love?

Do you miss the girl who laughed too loud,

The one who never second-guessed the crowd?

Or was it just the way she looked

That kept you hooked?

Did you love the girl who couldn’t sit still,

Or just the way she bent to your will?

Was it the way she laughed, the way she ran,

Or just the way she slipped into your plans?

Did you love the way she lived without fear,

Or just the way she filled up the atmosphere?

Was it her you held in your dreams at night,

Or just the shimmer, the glow, the effortless light?

Do you miss the girl that never slowed?

Did you love the way she glowed,

Or just the way she fit into your world?

Did you love her, or just a version

That was easier to hold?

The music is softer now, the steps more slow

Not lost, just learning where to go

Did you love the spark, or the way she burned?

Did you love the girl, or just the world she turned?

Now the embers dim, lessons learned

Now the mirror whispers someone new

I wonder if you see her too

Do you miss the girl who dreamed too wild,

The one who never stayed inside the lines?

Do you miss the girl who never checked twice?

The one who never measured herself

Against somebody’s eyes?

Did you love the way she looked in the golden lights

Or the way she held the world with untamed eyes?

Was it her, or just the feeling

Of something slipping through your fingers?

Do you miss the girl who lived like a melody,

The one who never cared for symmetry,

Now just a whisper lost in the cemetery?

I miss when I laughed without needing a scene

The bell hums low, I slip unseen,

One month left, then I chase the dream.

Under dimming lights, I find my place,

Counting days ‘til I leave this space.

Fingers once danced on ivory keys,

Now they chase the wind, lost in the breeze.

Now I sit in the corner, penning silent pleas,

Songs unsung, drowning in reveries.

Pages blown—verses the wind may keep,

Pages call where my heart runs deep.

Yet numbers blur, the hours unwind,

Drifting far from the girl I designed.

Cried in desperation, weeks spun too fast,

Needed a break, but the moment won’t last.

Spoke to my professor, but I wasn’t all there,

Walked away ‘cause I knew they wouldn’t care.

Cried in silence, let the moon drink my ache,

Watched your friend whisper where I start to break.

Sat in the corner, scrolling away,

Watching the world but too tired to play.

I hold my phone instead of a pen,

Type out my thoughts but erase them again.

Scroll through a world that isn’t my own,

Laugh at strangers but feel so alone.

They tell me how love should feel,

Set the bar higher than one can reach.

Seeking solace in flickering screens,

Ink stains verses no eyes have seen.

Poems unheard, just ghosts in between,

Yet time keeps slipping through the seams.

I traded heels for sneakers, but it’s not the same

The girl in the mirror still won’t say my name

I used to own the sky, now I stay on the ground

Guess I stopped being someone worth chasing around

Wondering if you ever loved me

Or just the way I used to be

Weightless, waiting, longing to be,

Maybe the weight is what sets me free,

Yet I’m still bound to the tide that carries me.

My world is quieter, more measured, more still,

Yet something is missing—some unspoken thrill.

I wonder if dreams can still burn like before,

Or if growing up just means wanting something more.

I learned to sit still, to speak a little less

Started folding myself into someone I detest

Tamed my laughter, softened my stance

But I lost the part of me that dared to dance

I lost the part of me I loved in the grind

Somehow, I feel like I’ve left me behind

Maybe the fire never left my hands,

Maybe the wind still hums through the strands

Of my hair when I walk in the morning light,

Maybe the stars still whisper at night.

Maybe I was never yours to love,

Just a reflection of what you thought love was.

One day, we all lose

The ones who were our muse.

Slow Dance

This fast pace feels like a craze,

Trapped and lost in an endless maze.

The world spins on, a cruel chase,

Erase my worries, leave no trace.

All day, I yearn for your serene face.

You catch my gaze; my heart starts to race,

Your heart sets mine ablaze.

I freeze there, unable to faze,

As my eyes turn blurred, caught in a haze.

With every step, I long to embrace,

To fall apart, to melt in your grace.

Yet here I stand, frozen in place,

As the silence grows, my soul in a daze,

Unable to put it in phrase,

But I know this ain’t just a phase—

Are you feeling the same, in case?

You are my warm sunrays on my bluest days,

Will you stay even if life shows all shades of grays?

Through every storm, you’ll be my light that stays,

You make me happy with your nonchalant ways.

We vibe and dance, like carefree strays,

I still remember those unforgettable days,

A memory that forever stays.

In the dark, our hands locked, and the music plays,

As we move together, the rhythm softly sways.

Your voice, a soft whisper where time always delays,

Where you are, my whole world lays.

I met you in France, caught in a dreamy trance,

Fell in love at first glance, my heart began to prance.

Through life's trials, our love will enhance,

Forever in your love, I’ll take a stance.

It felt like fate's sweet chance,

A spark ignited, a sweet romance.

It's part of God’s intricate plans,

To hold your heart in my trembling hands.

Babe, let go of all the sadness,

And join me in a slow dance.